我什么都不要了啦。。。。
真想不通我头脑怎么一回事。。。。
若世上没有我不就好咯！！
说精彩，我突然不觉得我的生活又那么的精彩。。。
说开心，我一时之间也不觉得我活得有多开心。。。
说到不开心，一箩筐。。。说不上也不想说。。。。
谈到家，以前总是很开心，很骄傲。。。现在觉得我是累赘。。。
说到未来，还是现实已点，不要做假设性的幻想。。。
说到梦想， 霎那间觉得这是属于对未来，对生命感觉到活力的人的权利。。。。
若说的累了，不敢说我第一名，到处都挺的到人家说累。。。怎么比，不行比，每个人累得东西部一样嘛！！但我累得实。。。我这条命啦。。。。
够了，真的不偏你，累了，真的，25岁。。。人家说还有很多事情，很多明天，等着人去闯。。但是，每天也不过如此。。。。说真的，每天这么努力，为的是什么，我也不知道。。。不能说没有特别的惊喜，但惊喜之后呢？又只不过是这样咯！！！不然怎样，今天过完难道我可以随心所欲的欢歌老爸老妈弟弟妹妹，或是换个国家睡一觉之类？？不行吗。。。
忍命吧。。。不是我选的。。。。是被派来这地方，这国度，这家庭，这排行，我有什么办法？？？？
on friday this japanese guy came to RAS to pay us $500 for us to do email blast to all RAS members... so my manager ask this mei mei to do to do it... tat japanese came arond 5.30... so after pay he wants us to send out as quick.. his expression i know he is gan jiong abt it liao... so next day which is sat.. is hui shan duty..fri night hui shan got a phone call from her mum to work again..
SO.. i know she rush for work.. so i told her.. i will do up the email template and all then sat she come and do.....
so i did up the email template.. then go home liao ma.. i open my email. and saw the jap email again..
I KNOW this mei mei WILL BE SURE LATE IN THE MORNING ON SAT.. so i just reorganise all the email list.. and then send the email blast out for her at home.. i did the whole thing until 11pm lor..
ok so ... i not very bao wo abt email blast... so i sms her to say tomolo. which is sat.. she go office liao must check if the email was proper.... then sat came liao....
another colleague then sms me at 9.40 to tell me this mei mei haven reach....
i super worried.. cos the email never did proper will DIE!!! so i call her.. 10am.. she pick up and say she sleeping.. She say shit shit shit.. then i say you quickly brush up and go work liao.. cos imp things to do...... ok so I go do my own mkting thinking tat she will rush to office cos is her duties…
then 11.45 I sms her to ask her where she is… no reply. So I ask yit teng and she say hs haven reach.. so I call hs.. she still sleeping.. I was sooooooooooooooo angry and I just say never mind and hang up….
I mean I not purposely… BUT I really angry…
Work suppose to be hers… I guess she will work very tired and be late a bit next day.. so I think I do for her.. she just go and check.. SHE TAKE IT FOR GRANTED.. and sleep at home.. wake up her and she continue… U say angry or not….. pple pay for this email blast leh.. he say must go out at least by sat morn….. u guess.. if I wait for shan…. Till nw or till mon?? that Japanese I promise, he will scream at manager lor...
and.. wah lau... boiling...... all this conversation i will remember for life... there's an idiot i try to be nice with.. in the end... 好心被狗咬。。狼心当狗肺。。all the office de pple dun like her also de.. i mean her wking pattern la...
the secretary and manager often ask me abt her this and that.. i always try to cover her up... i cant bring myself to get her into trouble.. though is true.. wah lau....
ANYONE CAN TELL ME WAHT TO DO!!!! FED UP..
but in the end.. all ended.. i say i dun care will do... shut up in future... hai!!! hope i can do it.. and wont feel bad abt it..... she happy she keep it up lor.. lucky she work here... if she wk somewhere...she definitely die de.....
I WONT CARE LA... oh 老天爷。。请赐我力量。。。。。
then the other mei mei... i call mei mei B k..... the one i angry with is mei mei A....
A sure go tell B.... bt i also gt tell B i angry la...
things B go judge herself la....
if she also ding dong with A....
then i find a way to move back inside the office la...
i think i better mix with pple inside.... politics better than i die from anger...
